God Is Enough Part 4

A few closing thoughts:

I mentioned in an earlier post that this lesson scares me just a bit and here’s why: Often it requires sacrifice. You can’t simply say God is enough; you have to live that out. God being enough means making the choice to not let anything come before God, even if it costs you and takes work. And believe me, this will take effort and time. You must learn to hold things loosely as you realize nothing really belongs to you, and willing submit to the Potter’s Hand.

Am I there yet? In short, no, not yet. I think this lesson is one that takes awhile; one you will have to make a conscious effort to choose for the rest of your life. But God being enough is also a great comfort. It’s knowing that no matter what, I will forever and for certain have everything I need. Nothing will touch my life without going through God’s hands first. I have a personal relationship with Him and can rest in His goodness and grace. God being enough is freedom, because your worries and cares melt into trust, and your burdens are replaced by His peace.

I am getting there, slowly but surely. The feeling of being entitled to children is gone. The mental picture of me running to them instead of Him is replaced by Him holding their hands, and mine. Allowing Him to hold me as I let myself cry, letting go of anger, realizing what a gift it was to be their mother (even if only for a short time), and reaching out to others who are hurting is helping me move forward.

So what’s left?

What’s left is me being able to say, “Lord, if I have to spend the rest of my life without more children, You are enough. Your will be done. You are the only One I need.” What’s left is surrendering my dreams.

Surrendering my dream of being a mother to children on earth does not mean I will not be one; it simply means I trust Him to fulfill my desire in His time and way. It means that either way, I love Him – that if I get to have more living children, I will give Him the glory; but if not, He will always be enough.

I’m not quite there because the desire have more children here is so real. I treasure everything from tying their shoes to tucking them in at night. Caring for children has been built into me since I was little, and is a part of who I am. But that desire can’t be the biggest part, and can’t mean more to me than anything. If it does, my desire has crossed over from a dream to an idol.

So, my husband and I are waiting on God to move us to where we need to be. As we wait, He proves in a hundred different ways the truth that He is enough.

Enough to mend broken hearts. Enough to sustain. Enough to give strength to fulfill His plans for our life.

Plans that are always for our good and His glory.

May we cling to that promise as we rejoice in our great God who satisfies like nothing and no one else ever can.

©️ Grace Baeten 2023

Note: obviously I wrote this blog years ago, before we had our son. However, the basic principles still apply today as we have been desiring to have another child for several years now. I’m so thankful to God for all His provisions, and am seeking to live faithfully while we continue to cry out for relief from our trial.