Someday

Sometimes it just hurts.

I miss you.

I wonder what life would be like if you had gotten to stay.

Who would you be? Who would I be?

I wish I knew.

I will.

Someday.

On days like today I wonder if it was even worth it. Loving I mean. Is the love worth the pain it costs me?

Yes.

Yes, yes, it was worth it. It will be worth it.

Someday.

Because when I think of getting to heaven,

And having at least ten kids come running up to me,

Ten faces expressing joy to see me,

Ten voices calling me mama,

Ten pairs of arms wrapping me in their embrace,

I will no longer wonder.

I’ll know it was worth it.

When I think of Christ wiping tears from my eyes and removing the burdens off my shoulders,

When I imagine worshipping and praising Him in person,

Walking with Him hand in hand,

My heart starts to feel a little bit lighter.

Good is coming.

So I can push on today and enjoy the gifts I’ve been given, even while I wait for that “someday” to come –

the one that promises me joy ever after because of God’s grace.

I don’t have to wait until “someday” to start seeing His grace.

It has been following me all of my life.

And it’s going to lead me straight into Christ’s arms.

Someday…

Someday very soon.