People ask me – what did you do differently? But I can’t say. Because for all my efforts, the “answer” to our fertility struggles wasn’t more tests or meds or diets or doctors. It was God. Wasn’t it the same for all the women who struggled with fertility in the Bible? I think every one of them would have given the same answer when asked how they finally had kids. “Only God.”
To be clear, I still went on immune system suppressants. I take two blood thinning shots a day, along with hormones, supplements, & insulin, because that’s the responsible thing for me to do. But you could not convince me that we got here because of anything we did. No, God alone worked this miracle. As my husband told me, “It’s like God wanted us to know, ‘You can’t do this for yourself. But I can do it.’ “
To me, that’s a small picture of salvation. Oh was my soul utterly wicked. Bound too tightly to sin. The Law made it clear that I couldn’t make things right for myself.
But God could. And He did.
Someday He’ll make ALL things right. That’s my favorite promise in Scripture. There is so much hard in this world. But not for long.
The King is coming back to make all things new.
All things. Including the hearts that ache with the scars of infertility.
My scars still run deep. But I have learned that as deep as those scars go,
His grace runs deeper still.
The Misplaced Mom 
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