My egg reserve was quite low for my age & my hormones were a mess. Ovulation was deteriorating. Meds were hit & miss as to whether they worked to accomplish a healthy ovulation. Poor ovulation usually equals a miscarriage, & I saw that ring true for us. We were on an emotional roller coaster that... Continue Reading →
I’ve struggled with chronic illness now for about 6 years. It comes with much grief, just as RPL did. Many of my diseases affected fertility. We had purposely waited until our son was over a year old to actively try for another baby. I knew how consuming a fertility journey could be & I didn’t... Continue Reading →
I begged God to make this pregnancy different from the start. He graciously did just that. I had actual morning sickness for the first time ever, & at my appointments we heard things were “great” & “everything looks normal”. It’s hard to explain how you can simultaneously feel anxiety & peace, but somehow there was... Continue Reading →
As tempted as I was to pursue further fertility help, we didn’t. We just pursued God. This looked like a LOT of Bible reading, prayer, reaching out to others who were hurting, and continually laying down my burdens at the feet of Christ. The grief was not easy to carry, but He carried me. The... Continue Reading →
The new doctor - Dr. C - was incredibly thorough & understanding. We put some new medications in place & gave my body a few months to heal. I got pregnant a third time, with twins, miscarried, had a D&C to avoid prolonged bleeding again, & underwent extensive testing. I was diagnosed with MTHFR, two... Continue Reading →
Wow, has life been full. Full of really hard things and full of really good things. Just full. Let me catch you up:) But first, we have to go back a ways… Over on instagram @hesatisfiesthehungrysoul I’ve finally written out our fertility journey, and I wanted to post it here too. There’s a lot of... Continue Reading →
It was a holiday weekend. My husband had taken an extra day off so we could enjoy some fun family time. I woke up early in the morning with a piercing headache and I begged God to make it go away so I wouldn’t put a dent in our weekend plans. I hate feeling like... Continue Reading →
Sometimes late in the night, I still feel like a little girl, scared of the dark and wanting her mom or dad to come comfort her. But instead of the dark being a lack of physical light, it’s a horrible feeling covering my heart. I wish people understand the pain that comes from an infertility... Continue Reading →
The sun is shining brightly. It does not match my mood. The spring air is warm and inviting. I want to enjoy it. To grab a rake and start on yard work. To toss the ball with my son. To just lay under the clouds and watch them roll by. Other families are starting softball... Continue Reading →
Mother’s Day For so many people, this day is a mix of pain and joy. I have been given the miracle of two sweet little boys - one in my tummy and the other almost 6 - and celebrating with them is an incredible gift. ❤️ But I have also walked through many Mother’s Days... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 