I try not to compare my story to other people’s, because I know that doesn’t lead to a heart of contentment. Sometimes though, it feels like I can’t help it. Like when I run into an old acquaintance who’s been married just a few years and already has more living children than I do… or... Continue Reading →
Over the last almost eight years of trying to grow our family, God has impressed many lessons upon my heart. One recurring theme is that Christ is the believer’s treasure. More than anything or anyone else, knowing Christ should be His children’s deepest desire. There have been seasons in my life when Christ’s friendship was... Continue Reading →
I really didn’t think this is how our year of “infertility” would end. I hoped and prayed miscarriages were behind us. For good. But as I stared down in shock at that out-of-the-blue positive pregnancy test, my relief at knowing I could still get pregnant was equal to the fear I had deep in my... Continue Reading →
This was in honor of national infant loss awareness day. I know it’s late, but we lost another pregnancy, so it’s been hard for me to write. I wanted to post it anyway. Dear Babies, October 15th, 2022 There really are no words to describe my love for you. Being your mom is one of... Continue Reading →
Some days I just don’t know what to write. So many thoughts swirling, but not much coming together. So instead of trying to put together a bunch of my words, today let’s just dwell on Christ’s. Matthew 5:2-12 2 And he opened his mouth and taught them, saying:3 "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for... Continue Reading →
“Amazing grace - How sweet the sound! That saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now I’m found; was blind but now I see.” My mother always said she felt God picked her kids’ names. Her and my dad prayed about each one, and named us accordingly. Throughout our lives, she’s seen... Continue Reading →
“I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning. O Israel, hope in the LORD! For with the LORD there is steadfast love, and with him is plentiful redemption.” Psalms 130:5-7 Every... Continue Reading →
Sometimes worthless questions pop into my head: “Would I have picked to have the struggles I do? Is struggling worth the lessons I’m learning?” Then I think: “It doesn’t really matter because life is what it is.” And then I remind myself God knows best. One day while working on a book, I wrote this... Continue Reading →
“My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all, and no one is able to snatch them out of... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I wonder if I’ve learned anything from my physical frustrations. Sometimes I wonder why my body feels much older than it is. Sometimes I wonder if anything good has come from the place of discomfort, pain, and fear. But good things have come. I’ve learned. Slowly, but still. Progress is good. One thing I’ve... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 