Sometimes it just hurts. I miss you. I wonder what life would be like if you had gotten to stay. Who would you be? Who would I be? I wish I knew. I will. Someday. On days like today I wonder if it was even worth it. Loving I mean. Is the love worth the... Continue Reading →
I have a hard time with this - reconciling suffering with an all-sovereign God who loves me. Questions toy with my mind and my heart. Was this much suffering necessary? For this long? In this way? It must have been, because otherwise God would never have allowed it. Was it ordained? Is it purposeful? Must... Continue Reading →
A few closing thoughts: I mentioned in an earlier post that this lesson scares me just a bit and here’s why: Often it requires sacrifice. You can’t simply say God is enough; you have to live that out. God being enough means making the choice to not let anything come before God, even if it... Continue Reading →
A few days after I lost the twins, a friend came over to visit with me. She spent six hours at my kitchen table talking with me, and I thanked God many times she was able to be there. While we sat together, she shared a poem about waiting. It is by far the best... Continue Reading →
That phrase probably doesn’t make sense, but I’ve come to say and think it so often it seems perfectly natural to me. This phrase was made up during a conversation with my mom. I don’t even remember the specifics of the conversation, or how it got started; I just remember talking about the things I... Continue Reading →
Being an autism momma has humbled me in a lot of ways. Motherhood in general has I suppose, but autism does bring in certain unique elements. When it came to motherhood, I was determined to do it exactly the right way. With over a decade of baby-sitting experience, and a host of parenting books and... Continue Reading →
While the overwhelming response we received in explaining autism to family and friends has been compassion and support, we’ve already had a couple people share their opinions on autism, despite their limited knowledge of it. I figured that would come, so I’d just like to set one record straight right now: “Autism” is not a... Continue Reading →
*I’m taking a quick break from posting old miscarriage blogs in honor of Autism Awareness Month. Spread the love! 🥰 “My son has autism.” It was quite the (internal) journey for me to get to the place where I could say those words out loud and not just accept them, but embrace them. I kind... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 