Did you know our fertility journey started on my birthday? That was the first time I found out I was pregnant. I found out I was a MOM. It felt like the best gift ever. I don’t know why, but it was this secret dream I had - to become a mom on my birthday.... Continue Reading →
To conclude this little series: if you stuck with me this long, thanks a lot! I appreciate it. On the practical side of things, I’m always happy to answer any questions. Supplement brands, good doctors, good lab companies, best anti inflammatories, etc. Oh we’ve been at this for so long… but truthfully, if I could... Continue Reading →
Months went by. I continued reading books about God’s character. The chapter I read the month I was diagnosed with APS/immune issues talked about how we all have precious things in our life. The author called them our “babies”. She meant it figuratively… but for me it was literal. Her book compared hard seasons of... Continue Reading →
My egg reserve was quite low for my age & my hormones were a mess. Ovulation was deteriorating. Meds were hit & miss as to whether they worked to accomplish a healthy ovulation. Poor ovulation usually equals a miscarriage, & I saw that ring true for us. We were on an emotional roller coaster that... Continue Reading →
I’ve struggled with chronic illness now for about 6 years. It comes with much grief, just as RPL did. Many of my diseases affected fertility. We had purposely waited until our son was over a year old to actively try for another baby. I knew how consuming a fertility journey could be & I didn’t... Continue Reading →
I begged God to make this pregnancy different from the start. He graciously did just that. I had actual morning sickness for the first time ever, & at my appointments we heard things were “great” & “everything looks normal”. It’s hard to explain how you can simultaneously feel anxiety & peace, but somehow there was... Continue Reading →
As tempted as I was to pursue further fertility help, we didn’t. We just pursued God. This looked like a LOT of Bible reading, prayer, reaching out to others who were hurting, and continually laying down my burdens at the feet of Christ. The grief was not easy to carry, but He carried me. The... Continue Reading →
Sometimes late in the night, I still feel like a little girl, scared of the dark and wanting her mom or dad to come comfort her. But instead of the dark being a lack of physical light, it’s a horrible feeling covering my heart. I wish people understand the pain that comes from an infertility... Continue Reading →
The sun is shining brightly. It does not match my mood. The spring air is warm and inviting. I want to enjoy it. To grab a rake and start on yard work. To toss the ball with my son. To just lay under the clouds and watch them roll by. Other families are starting softball... Continue Reading →
Mother’s Day For so many people, this day is a mix of pain and joy. I have been given the miracle of two sweet little boys - one in my tummy and the other almost 6 - and celebrating with them is an incredible gift. ❤️ But I have also walked through many Mother’s Days... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 