There are many aspects of the resurrection story that amaze me, but this weekend there is one in particular I’m meditating on. He’s hanging on the cross, in pain. The Father turns away from His Son, blood running down Christ’s body. Jesus looks over and sees a small group of people who love Him, but... Continue Reading →
In the last blog I brought up a few tough questions, one in particular I have really wrestled with over the last several months. If God is goodAnd justAnd hates sinAnd grieves for our sufferingThen why do we suffer? The devil isn’t having to work super hard to keep my doubts alive these days. I... Continue Reading →
Everyone knows that in most grieving, there is a season of anger. There’s always been one for me. It comes when I begin to wrestle with tough questions about God and life. Why so much suffering? Why doesn’t He stop it, in His sovereignty? How can He listen to my cry without taking action if... Continue Reading →
I never thought I’d be back in the same painful boat. After we finally had a healthy baby, I honestly believed the trial of miscarriages was over. I knew there was a chance I’d miscarry again, but to struggle with it again? No. Just no. Yet, here we are. More babies in heaven. Literally too... Continue Reading →
I try not to compare my story to other people’s, because I know that doesn’t lead to a heart of contentment. Sometimes though, it feels like I can’t help it. Like when I run into an old acquaintance who’s been married just a few years and already has more living children than I do… or... Continue Reading →
Over the last almost eight years of trying to grow our family, God has impressed many lessons upon my heart. One recurring theme is that Christ is the believer’s treasure. More than anything or anyone else, knowing Christ should be His children’s deepest desire. There have been seasons in my life when Christ’s friendship was... Continue Reading →
I really didn’t think this is how our year of “infertility” would end. I hoped and prayed miscarriages were behind us. For good. But as I stared down in shock at that out-of-the-blue positive pregnancy test, my relief at knowing I could still get pregnant was equal to the fear I had deep in my... Continue Reading →
This was in honor of national infant loss awareness day. I know it’s late, but we lost another pregnancy, so it’s been hard for me to write. I wanted to post it anyway. Dear Babies, October 15th, 2022 There really are no words to describe my love for you. Being your mom is one of... Continue Reading →
“Only fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart. For consider what great things he has done for you.” 1 Samuel 12:24 “Hello, it’s nice to meet you. Is this your family? Oh you just have one child.” The guest speaker at our church stuck his foot in his mouth before he... Continue Reading →
God is good, all the time. It’s been my theme from the very beginning, because it was something I had to repeat to myself over and over again. And when I was too weak to say it, God would provide someone else to say it for me. Though at times I have wrongly doubted the... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 