I begged God to make this pregnancy different from the start. He graciously did just that. I had actual morning sickness for the first time ever, & at my appointments we heard things were “great” & “everything looks normal”. It’s hard to explain how you can simultaneously feel anxiety & peace, but somehow there was... Continue Reading →
As tempted as I was to pursue further fertility help, we didn’t. We just pursued God. This looked like a LOT of Bible reading, prayer, reaching out to others who were hurting, and continually laying down my burdens at the feet of Christ. The grief was not easy to carry, but He carried me. The... Continue Reading →
The new doctor - Dr. C - was incredibly thorough & understanding. We put some new medications in place & gave my body a few months to heal. I got pregnant a third time, with twins, miscarried, had a D&C to avoid prolonged bleeding again, & underwent extensive testing. I was diagnosed with MTHFR, two... Continue Reading →
Wow, has life been full. Full of really hard things and full of really good things. Just full. Let me catch you up:) But first, we have to go back a ways… Over on instagram @hesatisfiesthehungrysoul I’ve finally written out our fertility journey, and I wanted to post it here too. There’s a lot of... Continue Reading →
Mother’s Day For so many people, this day is a mix of pain and joy. I have been given the miracle of two sweet little boys - one in my tummy and the other almost 6 - and celebrating with them is an incredible gift. ❤️ But I have also walked through many Mother’s Days... Continue Reading →
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of all of you. Never has there been a moment since your existence that I have not loved you. I wish you were here, and I don’t think missing you will ever go away. God used you all to change my life, and I wouldn’t trade... Continue Reading →
As a worrier, I often struggle with feeling the need to control everything. But obviously I can’t. I have to trust the Lord to take care of all the things I can’t take care of. As someone who struggles with a few health issues, I often feel inadequate to meet the days tasks with a... Continue Reading →
I really should know better by now. But no matter how many times I do this, I see a second pink line and hope takes hold for a moment. All I can do is beg God. Please please please make this baby live. I rehearse Daniel 3:18. “The God I serve is able… and He... Continue Reading →
Our Christmas card this year was supposed to look different than it does. I could’ve had a six month old. Or I could’ve been very pregnant - due December 31st. Or I could currently be entering the second trimester. But instead of some type of happy baby announcement, I’m still grieving all the losses we’ve... Continue Reading →
A few closing thoughts: I mentioned in an earlier post that this lesson scares me just a bit and here’s why: Often it requires sacrifice. You can’t simply say God is enough; you have to live that out. God being enough means making the choice to not let anything come before God, even if it... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 