Remember joy? I know - it’s hard to come by sometimes. Seems drowned out by the cares of life. But really, joy can still abound even amidst hard things… Because, life is a gift. God gives life and joy when we learn to delight in Him. He delights in us. He gives good gifts. So... Continue Reading →
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of all of you. Never has there been a moment since your existence that I have not loved you. I wish you were here, and I don’t think missing you will ever go away. God used you all to change my life, and I wouldn’t trade... Continue Reading →
I have a T-shirt that says, “Seeing the world differently is beautiful. - Autism Awareness.” I bought it shortly after finding out our son is autistic, as I processed what that meant. I knew autism would never change how much I love my son. In fact, it only deepened my desire to work hard at... Continue Reading →
I hear the pitter patter of your feet running from room to room, hiding your favorite toys in closets. You love small spaces. You wrap your arms around me. Your little hands smell like peanut butter, one of the few foods you eat without struggle. You squeeze my elbow - your new stim. “I love... Continue Reading →
Then Samuel took a stone and set it between Mizpah and Shen, and named it Ebenezer, saying, "Thus far the LORD has helped us." (1 Samuel 7:12, NASB) Note from the John MacArthur Study Bible: “Thus far the Lord has helped us. This expression means that the Lord was the One responsible for getting Israel... Continue Reading →
As a worrier, I often struggle with feeling the need to control everything. But obviously I can’t. I have to trust the Lord to take care of all the things I can’t take care of. As someone who struggles with a few health issues, I often feel inadequate to meet the days tasks with a... Continue Reading →
I really should know better by now. But no matter how many times I do this, I see a second pink line and hope takes hold for a moment. All I can do is beg God. Please please please make this baby live. I rehearse Daniel 3:18. “The God I serve is able… and He... Continue Reading →
Our Christmas card this year was supposed to look different than it does. I could’ve had a six month old. Or I could’ve been very pregnant - due December 31st. Or I could currently be entering the second trimester. But instead of some type of happy baby announcement, I’m still grieving all the losses we’ve... Continue Reading →
Do you ever feel like you’re walking a fine line? Like you’re a little divided, and unsure of what way you’re going to go? But deep down, you know the right thing to do… That’s how I feel these days. I want to cling to God’s Word with unwavering hope. I want to let my... Continue Reading →
Sometimes it just hurts. I miss you. I wonder what life would be like if you had gotten to stay. Who would you be? Who would I be? I wish I knew. I will. Someday. On days like today I wonder if it was even worth it. Loving I mean. Is the love worth the... Continue Reading →
The Misplaced Mom 