We vow not to let the hardships of life overtake us, but they do sometimes. Sometimes the darkness stretches out before us and over time, slowly it encompasses our thoughts and emotions and… everything. We determine not to let it affect our relationships. Rock our faith. Make us bitter. But eventually, we feel like we... Continue Reading →
Fertility Story Part 6
My egg reserve was quite low for my age & my hormones were a mess. Ovulation was deteriorating. Meds were hit & miss as to whether they worked to accomplish a healthy ovulation. Poor ovulation usually equals a miscarriage, & I saw that ring true for us. We were on an emotional roller coaster that... Continue Reading →
Fertility Story Part 5
I’ve struggled with chronic illness now for about 6 years. It comes with much grief, just as RPL did. Many of my diseases affected fertility. We had purposely waited until our son was over a year old to actively try for another baby. I knew how consuming a fertility journey could be & I didn’t... Continue Reading →
Sick Beds
It was a holiday weekend. My husband had taken an extra day off so we could enjoy some fun family time. I woke up early in the morning with a piercing headache and I begged God to make it go away so I wouldn’t put a dent in our weekend plans. I hate feeling like... Continue Reading →
Remember Joy
Remember joy? I know - it’s hard to come by sometimes. Seems drowned out by the cares of life. But really, joy can still abound even amidst hard things… Because, life is a gift. God gives life and joy when we learn to delight in Him. He delights in us. He gives good gifts. So... Continue Reading →
Thus Far the Lord Has Helped Me
Then Samuel took a stone and set it between Mizpah and Shen, and named it Ebenezer, saying, "Thus far the LORD has helped us." (1 Samuel 7:12, NASB) Note from the John MacArthur Study Bible: “Thus far the Lord has helped us. This expression means that the Lord was the One responsible for getting Israel... Continue Reading →
The Lord Will Keep Me
As a worrier, I often struggle with feeling the need to control everything. But obviously I can’t. I have to trust the Lord to take care of all the things I can’t take care of. As someone who struggles with a few health issues, I often feel inadequate to meet the days tasks with a... Continue Reading →
Even This
I really should know better by now. But no matter how many times I do this, I see a second pink line and hope takes hold for a moment. All I can do is beg God. Please please please make this baby live. I rehearse Daniel 3:18. “The God I serve is able… and He... Continue Reading →
Lasting Satisfaction
Our Christmas card this year was supposed to look different than it does. I could’ve had a six month old. Or I could’ve been very pregnant - due December 31st. Or I could currently be entering the second trimester. But instead of some type of happy baby announcement, I’m still grieving all the losses we’ve... Continue Reading →
Grace
Do you ever feel like you’re walking a fine line? Like you’re a little divided, and unsure of what way you’re going to go? But deep down, you know the right thing to do… That’s how I feel these days. I want to cling to God’s Word with unwavering hope. I want to let my... Continue Reading →